Hally 17 years old

-sufferer of OCD, anxiety and self harm
-can write backwards
-lover of strange names

September
I walk around
Harboring this guilt,
This fear,
That I’m the problem,
That everything is my fault.
And it’s so heavy.
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September
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You know that admitting the problem is the first step towards repair
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September
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I walk around
Harboring this guilt,
This fear,
That I’m the problem,
That everything is my fault.
And it’s so heavy.
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September
Anonymous said:

What subjects are you studying for alevel? Where you hoping to go for uni? What do you want to study at uni?

I studied Geography, History, English Literature and Drama last year. This year I gave up Geography because it was boring as!!

I’m not sure where I’m hoping to go, hopefully a Russell Group or Redbrick, maybe Royal Holloway/Exeter/Bristol/Loughborough?? I really really want to study Drama and English.

Thank you for asking! 

Hxxx

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September
Anonymous said:

Are you school and teachers helpful with all this for you?

My school and teachers are incredibly understanding; I really wouldn’t have been able to progress in my recovery without them. They give me extra time as well as breathing space in lessons in case I get panicky.

I think what really helped was talking to my Head of Year so she fully understood my issues and then she could inform my teachers. Having a good relationship with them is so crucial and invaluable. 

Hx

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September
"Its okay, I'm here."
"I'm not going to leave you."
"Everything is okay."
"I'm going to protect you."
"I believe in you."
"Hear my heartbeat? Just focus on that."
"You'll be alright, no one can hurt you now."
"You're not going to lose me."
"I love you."
"I'll stay right here, okay?"
"Just breathe."
"I'm okay, you're okay, we're okay."
"You're everything to me."
"I don't care what they think, to me, you are perfect."
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"You don't have to be alone."
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August
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August
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My AS results are coming tomorrow and I am trying my hardest to keep a clear head. The work I have been doing with OCD and anxiety etc. has been going so well!! Unfortunately…. I didn’t work as hard on my actual school work which I’m sure I will regret when I get my results. Anyway, here’s hoping! 

There are more important things in life than to get 4 A’s (at least that’s what I’m telling myself).

To all of you who are getting results tomorrow, I wish you all good luck!

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July

It’s been an amazing year with it’s ups and downs. I can safely say that this time last year I had no little to no hope of getting over OCD, now with the help of my new doctor and my wonderful family and friends, I can finally see myself without this disorder.

I can see myself getting over it and that hope for the future is completely invaluable.

Thank you to my followers, all of whom have made this blog so fufilling and I hope we can continue to get through this together.

Here’s to another year!

Yours always,
Hally
Xxx

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July

You have no reason to apologise for struggling! I'm all ears if you need a chat! You're in my thoughts x

Thank you, it means a lot. I’m just so messed up atm, and I feel so far away from my friends, and I’m hurting.

Sorry, I’m usually far more positive.

Thank you so much for your thoughts.

Hxxx

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July
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July
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Life has been so good recently, and I’ve no reason to be upset or low or depressive recently, but as we all know, depression doesn’t ask for a reason. I just hate it because it makes me hurt myself and it’s horrendous because I’ve been doing so well.

It makes me so ashamed.

I’m so sorry for disappointing you all, I couldn’t stay strong enough this time.

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June
Anonymous said:

You are such a strong person, even if you don't think so. Don't let this "mental disorder" keep you out of order because overcoming the obstacles will allow you to see the beauties that life presents to you everyday. Just remember that there are people out there who love you and you should never be anxious enough to share your love with others. I have horrible anxiety, too, but I take everyday as an opportunity to do what I couldn't do yesterday. Just remember to smile, breath, and go slowly.

This is one of the most beautiful messages I have ever received. Whoever you are, thank you so very much.

All the best,

Hally

xxx

answered 3 months ago
June
Anonymous said:

hello, is it ocd when things like: "if you don't do this in 10 sec you are going to die" pop in your mind? and you are getting nervous?

Yes, this is exactly a part of OCD. Please speak to someone, and get help.

H x

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